Tuesday, January 6, 2009
New Year New Me
2008 was a BAD year for me. As some of you may remember I got so down on myself that last summer I deleted my blog. Fortunately I came to my senses and resurrected it as I truly enjoy blogging and actually find it therapeutic at times. Unexpectedly, 2008 contained difficult family estrangements and stressful challenges and changes at work. One of the toughest lessons I had to learn was that someone I thought was my true friend was not. I was deceived and taken in by a manipulative liar. Naturally this was apparent to everyone but me. Arrgh. My self esteem plummeted.
I am truly grateful that 2008 is behind me. Of course not all of it was bad. In fact, many of the good times have been chronicled here on my blog where they can be reread and relived. And it's here on my blog that I want to share my special mantra for 2009: TO LIVE OUT LOUD AND NOT FALL SILENT. I found it in the last sentence of this blog post by Kim and realized it resonated with me.
This photo is of a Smiley Snowman posed on top of my computer tower in my work cubicle. I bought him for someone else but couldn't bear to part with him. He really brightens my day with his smile.
Fortunately, I have a circle of genuine friends who I appreciate now that I understand their true worth. One of these dear women gave me a belated Christmas present for my desk at work: a miniature calendar with a daily quote related to friendship. I found one so apropos that I taped it to my computer moniter so I can see it throughout my workday. I just have to share it with you.
My friend, if I could give you one thing, I would wish for you the ability to see yourself as others see you. Then you would realize what a truly special person you are. - B.A. Billingsly
Isn't that lovely? That's what a true friend does for you. Gives a gift to help you heal. I also bought myself a gift - a devotional by Joyce Meyer entitled New Day, New You. Each page has a short scripture verse with some inspirational thoughts for the day. For me reading it is taking a baby step back towards faith and light and hope. I'm really hoping for a better year. I know it all revolves around my taking better care of myself and making the right decisions and actions.
I wish you all peace of heart in 2009!